Thursday, 28 November 2013


Happy Thanksgiving guys and dolls.

I am not American but I like to give thanks for the stuff I have in my life.

1. My family and friends
2. My health
3. My house
4. My ability to earn a living
5. Good live music
6. Hugs and kisses
7. A great book
8. Good movies
9. New experiences
10. The ability the world has to be a great place

What are you grateful for??

Wednesday, 27 November 2013

Christmas shopping

Have you started yet?  Or are you one of those people (who I hate) that have it all done and dusted by October?

I know there are a few people out there, that shop in the January sales, or buy things throughout the year.

But most of you are like me, leave everything until the last minute and then have to spend all of December's wage packet on presents and are skint until the end of

Just me?

Oh well.

I need to be more organised.

I say that every year, and every year it is exactly the same.

I have bought decorations, cards etc in the January sales before, but then I lose them.

I need to buy a really big box, just for Christmas stuff, and put everything into that.

Wow, now thats a good idea Tina!  *pats self on back*

My list of people isn't even that large of a list, but I need to just get around to doing it.

I will, soon, maybe

There is still four weeks til Christmas, isn't there?  That's loads of time.

Or is it?

Monday, 25 November 2013

25 November 2013

Yesterday I witnessed a car accident.  A car knocked over a couple who were crossing the road.

It was terrible.

The impact knocked the man right out of his shoes.

Ever since I cannot stop thinking about it.  I see it happening repeatedly in my head.  I cried so much last night thinking of those poor people and their families.

Everyone concerned will be scarred from this.

I do not even know how the couple are.  They were alive when the ambulance took them away, but now?  I don't know.  There has been nothing on the news.

I am left with a feeling of incompleteness.  I don't know how this story ends.  And it is eating me up.

How do you live with that?  The poor driver who knocked them over must be feeling terrible.  But not as terrible as the families of those who were hit. 

The stories about what happened have been making their way as rumours round and about.  Why do people tell stories about things like this?  Why are we all such ghouls that we want to be a part of such a horific incident?

My heart is breaking for that couple.  Did they argue with their loved ones before going out?  Have they made peace about wrongs done to them in the past?  Have they left people wishing they had spread love and joy or are there people at home now thinking "the last thing I said was I hate you". 

If you love someone don't think that you can tell them tomoro.  Tell them now.  Tell them every day.

Don't let things fester.  Apologise if you are in the wrong.

Forgive things if someone has apologised to you.

Love people.

You never know when you won't get the chance.

Friday, 22 November 2013

22 November 2013

Today I was reminded that I have been going to the gym now for 11 months.  I have also been writing my little lettters to the outside world, in the orm of this blog, for nearly that length of time too. 

I am enjoy ing it, but not as much as I thought I would.

I have quite a few blogs that I read regularly, and I comment on them.  There are some really lovely girls out there :-)

This blog has become somewhat like my own personal diary, my space for talking about the madness in my head, the madness at work, and how I feel about the gym!

Its not really one type of blog or another.

It is just words, and occasionally pictures.

and it doesn't "fit" anywhere

I like it like that,  I like it to be "it" and not try and pretend to be something it isn't.

Just like me.


Wednesday, 20 November 2013

20 November 2013

Somedays I just cannot be annoyed.  Last night me and R had a disagreement, over nothing at all, but I huffed like a child and slept on the couch.

Except I didn't sleep.  I just lay on their, snuggled up in a blankie and a duvet and watched TV.  At 5 this morning I decided enough was enough, I got up, got washed and dressed, had my brekkie and took myself off to work.  I was in work from 7.30.  I DO NOT START UNTIL 9!

So when lunchtime rolled around I was a wee bit hungry.  So I stuffed myself with chips and a sandwich, yup I had both.  Now to any American readers I mean french fries and hmmm what do you call sandwiches?  I always think a sandwich in America is a burger here, so what do you call sandwiches?  You know two pieces of bread with some ham and tomato in the middle?  Someone enlighten me.


Yeah I was hungry. 

Its after five now.  I have the gym this evening, Zumba and Kettlebells and I am just in the mood to curl up and sleep.

I hope I find some energy somewhere.

How do you cope after being up too long and needing to go to the gym?

How do you cope after arguing with your other half.  Especially when you know it was over nothing.  :-(

Good thing tho, baby girl is making dinner tonight.  So when I get home from the gym my dinner will be sitting waiting on me.

Bad thing, that will be after eight tonight.  I forsee eating dinner whilst snoozing!!

Catch you later.....

Wednesday, 13 November 2013

13 November 2013

Well this whole weight loss thing has plateaued.

3 1/2 stone down and I have just stopped losing.

Everyone is coming up with different ideas about what I should do now....from eat more for a week, your metabolism will speed up then when you cut down again you will lose weight once more.  Or only eat protein for a week, this is bound to make a difference because it worked for my cousin's girlfriend's brother.  Or go on a smoothie diet.  Or just exercise more. 

I don't know what to do.

I try and speak to myself like I would to a girlfriend.  Its ok Tina, you are still on the right path.  You haven't put weight on.  You are not in a race.  You are becoming healthier and fitter.  You are better than you were before.


You know what?  All I want to do is scream and cry and go pout in a corner because the weight loss has stopped.


Now I have said it and shared it hopefully I can concentrate on working on me again.

Having said that, if you have any suggestions I really would love to hear them

E mail me or just drop me a comment

Thanx :-)

Friday, 8 November 2013


Sometimes one just has to accept the cheese that is in their life.

Sometimes one just has to throw their hands up to whoever is in charge upstairs, whether it is God, a god, a goddess, or a giant turtle and say thank you.  I am blessed.

I was looking (creeping) round facebook today, checking out various people's pictures etc and was wondering on how happy they were.  We always put the best pics online.  We don't really post (or take) pics of feeling down, or those days we spend crying curled up in bed.  So everything looks rosy online.  We brag about how well our new job is going, but not that we eat lunch everyday alone.  We brag about our great holiday, but not that it rained 5 days out of 7.  We boast about our partner's generousity, but not that they ignore us at weekends so they can go play golf.

I then started thinking about my life.  Yes I have a husband who between work and his hobbies is out quite a few evenings in the week.  Yes he has to work weekends as he works in retail.  Yes I get annoyed sometimes that I don't see him.


He loves me.  He tells me every single day.  He shows me every single day.

I feel like the luckiest woman alive.

I hope you feel that way too.