Thursday, 27 June 2013


Forgot to tell you all I am on Twitter now too.

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June 27 2013

Hi I am really starting to feel antsy now.  I haven't been to the gym since Monday, when I hurt my knee.  I miss it.

Yup, you heard me right. I miss going to the gym.  I feel like there is something missing and I have so much more time on my hands.

I have been feeling very restless too..its like I have all this energy without any way to expell it. 

I wish I could go back but my knee isn't fully recovered and I do not want to make it worse.

I might try a bit of swimming at the weekend tho.  That wouldn't be too painful on my knee, sure it wouldn't?

Just got my payslip thru and this was attached to it.  Have you ever saw these ideas written down?  Its an idea as to how to promote better mental health, ways in which you can feel better.

How to make urself feel better

I think they are easy to do ideas that will definately make you feel good.

What things do you do to make urself feel better?

Tuesday, 25 June 2013

June 25 2013

So I didn't win the Biggest Loser competition.  I did lose 14lbs so I did okay. 

The money would have been nice tho

Yesterday I went to the gym and I hurt my knee.  That knocks going to the gym on the head for a few days til it heals itself.  I hope it doesn't take too long.

At the weekend baby girl's friend came to stay and we went to see a movie (Despicable Me 2) and to an all you can eat chinese buffet.  OMGoodness but we stuffed ourselves silly.

That food was good!!

What else has been happening?  Well I painted my nails a bright pink.  they flash every time I type and make me smile.  (They do not actually flash, I just mean I get a flash of colour when I notice them moving).  The colour totally reminds me of Nicki Minaj or Katy Perry, you know that really bright colour??

Friday, 21 June 2013

June 21 2013

More and more people are starting to notice that I have lost weight.  People are stopping me in work telling me how well I look.

But why can I not see it?

I know I must have lost weight (I have lost 2 1/2 stone) but I look at myself and I don't see it.  I am starting to feel just a little worried about myself.  Is it that I am developing body dysmorphic syndrome?  Or just that it is happening gradually and like a child growing up, I just don't see it cos it happens every day?

Have any of you ever experienced this?

What did you do?

I have decided to just wait it out.  I believe it is happening too slowly for me to see.  It is happening tho.  I am not that delusional!!

October is when me and R are going on holiday.  I am looking forward to it.  I want to be able to wear a swimsuit without feeling self conscious.  I amnot sure it will happen for October, but I can at least try.  I reckon I have something in the region of another 4 dress sizes to go down before I will feel happy.  That will not happen for October.  So, if I could get down another 2 I would be happy.  I am not sure that can happen.  I have a friend who it a fitness instructor who has basically told me I would have to starve myself (less than 1,000 kcal per day) to lose that much weight....I dunno.  If I work really hard at the gym I might...mightn't I?

It is like the tortoise and the hare.  Slow and steady wins the race.  If I lose it too fast it will remember where it came from and jump back on, and bring a few friends.  If I lose it slowly it will slip off without realising and won't be able to find it's way back onto my hips!!

On a totally random and unconnected note. Don't you love it when your favourite bloggers put up an unexpected or extra post?  I do.  :-)

Catch you soon.  I have work to do, then the gym to go to this evening.  That weight aint gonna lose itself!

Thursday, 20 June 2013

June 20 2013

Two of my favourite bloggers have admitted to listening to the same song.  Now I don't know about you but I have hundreds of songs on my phone, and I listen to them every day without really listening to them.  Singing along but not really concentrating on either who is singing or what the song is.  But AMAZINGLY the song that both of them admitted to listening to was the one I WAS ACTUALLY LISTENING TO at the time I read their blogs...weird coincidence or a sign that I have more in common with these two amazing women?

Nadine and Erin  are really funny real women and you should just go read their blogs now :-)

Tell them I sent you.  They might have wine ;-)

Oh and BTW the song is The Cup Song by Anna Kendrick

Wednesday, 19 June 2013

June 19 2013

Do you ever do stuff and then wonder why?  Ever got halfway through something and stopped to ask yourself why you ever started?

That is me, everytime I decide that cleaning out the cupboard is a good idea, or sorting through my drawers to see which clothes I don't wear (the answer to that would be any clothes still in the drawer, since I am super messy and tend to keep my clothes on top of my drawers!!).

Monday night I was at the gym, working on the legs part of my three day programme.  Yesterday I was going out for dinner for a friend's birthday.  Hence I couldn't go to the gym to do my boxing class.  I did not bring my gym stuff.  Halfway through the day I got an attack of the guilts.  How could I go to dinner if I hadn't gone to the gym?  So I phoned baby girl to bring up my gym clothes, and I left work early to go to the gym.  I did the circuits part of my programme.  Then I went to dinner and ate without stressing myself. 

Now, that's weird behaviour.  Admit it.  I have.  I am going to the gym again tonight. 

Three nights in a row...maybe the girl in work who said I was going to the gym too much was right...but I "only" lost 1lb this week.  I know that's a good and healthy amount and that I have been loosing consistently, blah, blah, blah,  BUT I WANT TO LOSE MORE.

Ok, I said it.  I want to get this excess weight away.  So I will eat slightly more healthily and I will go to the gym more.  And I will do it.  (Even if it kills me)

Monday, 17 June 2013

June 17 2013

Tired would not come close to describing how I felt this weekend.  (Well yesterday evening)

Me and R were helping out at an activity day.  He was teaching archery and I was helping out at the climbing wall.  Giving the safety talk, putting safety equipment, harnesses and helmets on people and attaching them to the automatic belays and unhitching them, and taking off all safety equipment when they were done.  That is a whole lot of talking, smiling, repeating myself, kneeling down, getting up, crouching over, getting up, pulling ropes and being nice.

By the time I got home I was wrecked!!  I even had two pieces of bread to try and replenish some energy.  (I haven't eaten bread in about two or three weeks now).

But it was fun.  And a whole lot of people were encouraged to try somehing they wouldn't have tried before.  I like to think I helped there.  :-)

What did you do over the weekend?

Thursday, 13 June 2013

June 13 2013

The gym really knocks it out of you, doesn't it?

I have hit it pretty hard in the past couple of days.  An hour and a half of boxing circuits on Tuesday and a half hour of Zumba last night, with 45 mins of kettle bells after that.

I am pooped!!

My knees hurt, my thighs hurt, my arms hurt, my chest hurts.

I am a mess.

On the otherhand, I was able to do that.  Me, the overweight lazy biatch that six months ago had never set foot in a gym, was able to do 3 hours pretty intense exercise over a two day period.

I am so proud of me.

I watched some trash TV yesterday (Dr Oz) and he was saying that we should all celebrate the small stuff more.  I agree. Look around, think carefully.  What happened today that made you smile?  What did you do to make a difference?  Whose life did you make better, if only for an instant?  I bet you can think of at least one thing.

No?  Well, let me help you.  Did you let someone out of a road who was waiting?  Bet you made them smile.  Did you stand back and open a door for someone struggling with bags?  You made their life easier.  Did you smile at a stranger on the train or bus?  There you go!!

Bet you can think of a few more things now, can't you? 

Just think, every single day we do things, probably without thinking, that change other people's lives.  Celebrate that.  You do make a difference.

So yeah, I am celebrating that six months ago I couldn't do those things.

I am celebrating that I am making myself healthier.

I am celebrating that I am going on holiday in four months.  :-)

I am also feeling pretty sore!

And feeling a little guilty that I should be working.  :-/

Better get back to it.

Talk soon :-)

Tuesday, 11 June 2013

Giving back

I don't know about you, but I feel tht things are pretty good for me most times.  I have a great daughter, a good relationship with my husband, great family and friends around me, a house and a job.  We do okay.

Since I was younger, once I got my life on track I started to give back.  I volunteered at a charity shop a couple of days per week.  I did this right through university, and when baby girl got old enough she helped out too.

Once I started working full time it was harder, but I still did an occasional shift, I liked to think I was doing a little bit to make someone else's life better.

I volunteer with a couple of organisations now.  ALT, Adventure Leadership Training, (check them on Facebook) and Urban Angels.

ALT is a Christian organisation that brings sporting activities to local church groups, youth clubs, schools etc that couldn't usually afford to hire people in.  They provide climbing wall, archery, kayaking and football training.  I help with the climbing wall.  R is an archery instructor.

Urban Angels is a group of women who want to help other women.  They do many things, from organising Christmas boxes for local hospitals, to donating underwear to local shelters.

Last night we went into a women's refuge and treated them.  We bought in goodies to eat and drink.  We provided neck massages, facials, nail painting and pedicures.

Baby girl came with us. 

It was amazing how we touched these women.  They could not believe we were giving our time to give them some TLC.

It was an amazing night and we were privildged to do it.

June 11 2013

Summer is gone.

We are back to wind and rain and wearing boots, trousers and jackets.  PPPFFFTTT

Well I suppose we did get a week of it.  :-)

The sun going away has made me a little depressed, so I booked a holiday for me and R.  Its not until October, but it will be a kind of honeymoon for us, as we haven't been away since we got married except to visit my dearest sis in Scotland for a weekend.

So, now I have 4 months to REALLY work hard on my fitness.  No more cheating.  No more being bad or drinking alcohol.  I really want to put my head down and work hard. 

It also means going to the gym more often.  I can do it.  I will do it. 

Please, please if you can encouage me I would be grateful.


Thursday, 6 June 2013

June 6 2013

It is Summer.

The weather is amazing, we actually have sunshine, and it is warm!  Miracles will never cease to happen.

I live in Northern Ireland and to be honest we don't see the sun that often.  We do, however have a lot of rain.  When it does happen all the pasty white legs come out on show.  Blokes take their tops off, let their beer bellies hang out and walk about with their t-shirts tucked into the back of their shorts.  Girls wear short short and vest tops. 

I just don't understand it.

Tho it is funny to see all the tangoed girls wandering around with bright orange feet.  :-)

As for myself, once it gets warm (for that one random week) I find it difficult trying to decide what to wear to work.  My usual work uniform is black trousers, black shoes, a top and a cardigan.  But its WAY too warm to be doing that.  So I wore a pair of camel coloured trousers a top and sandals yesterday.  Today I am wearing a dress.  And I have bare legs.  I know, its shocking isnt it!!

I am feeling all hot and bothered.  I cannot be annoyed with work.  I want to be sitting outside, walking on a beach, playing frisbee, attending a music festival.  Really anything other than being in work. 

What do you like to do when the weather is nice?

Wednesday, 5 June 2013

June 5 2013

Two days off work and I forget that when I am here I am actually supposed to work!!

I have spent this morning checking Facebook, visiting all the blogs I follow and checking my e mail.

Anyone would think I don't have the internet at home, or on my phone!!

But anyhow!!

It is sunny here.

And warm.

And I spent yesterday sitting in the sun.

And I want to do it again today.

I do not want to be in work.

And so I procrastinate about actually doing work.

And faff about online.

And look out the window at the sunshine.

And feel depressed that I am not in it.


Maybe I could take a walk down to the garage?

Catch you later :-)

Monday, 3 June 2013

June 3 2013

Exam over. Woohoo. No more studying. No more assignments. No more guilty feelings cos I wasn't studying. 

Time to concentrate on me, family, the house, friends and my blog.